It’s been a little more than a year and a half since my last post. Don’t worry, life, growth, change, love, hope, and grace have all continued around here in the last 20 months or so. Some of you who know me well know that not long after my last post my mom died after a decades long, intense battle with Parkinson’s disease. I fully intended on posting about her, but I couldn’t find the words. I will dedicate a post to her soon, though. The 2012 holidays came and went, and I found myself in the midst of our first year of homeschool treading emotional water just to stay afloat. I drew further in to myself, focusing on what was most important at the time: providing sustainable foods, keeping a clean home, and teaching the boys. I hope that I was a good model of how to have hope, give and receive grace, and connect with those you love not just in spite of, but through grief.
I finally felt like I was starting to come out of my shell in April of last year when we had to say goodbye to our first baby. Keva was 14 years old. She was the size of a sack of sugar with legs when Hubby gave her to me for Christmas on my birthday one year. She went on every run with me. For nearly 8 years, she was the baby of the house. I’ll admit that having the boys, especially our first and loudest baby, was hardest on her, but she learned that fetch is still fun, walks are better than nothing, and toddlers taste good. We were still reeling from a miscarriage less than 24 hours before when we had to take her in to the emergency vet; it was clear she wasn’t going to make it, there was no sense in prolonging her suffering.
That very tough weekend sent my flying back into my shell. I had nothing left to share or give. I was surrounded by love, and through hugs, boys, laughs, friends, family, and, most of all, grace, hope returned. So much has happened in these months since my last post. We’ve celebrated birthdays, learned many new things, marked time together, found our rhythm again, and created everything from artworks to smiles, meals to messes.
We are still taking a weekly field trip, and we are most thrilled that our zoo now has penguins!
We are still taking plenty of risks too.
There is so much to share about this lapsed time! Don’t be surprised if some posts in the coming year include a section about last year at the same time.